A Change of Heart and Attitude

So far, in looking back, it might seem that all my initial experiences with ‘V’ were negative. That is not the case as I later realized she was speaking to me for a long time, I just did not associate the voice speaking to me with the powerful sexy woman of my dreams.
About 4 months before my first dream encounter with her, I was downstairs in my house, just contemplating my life and how I could tell how the next 40 years would pan out and was pretty unhappy about it. I felt stuck in life, miscast in a role in which I did not belong. It was while contemplating that I was surprised to hear a female voice very clearly inside my head ask if I was happy. I realized at that point that my whole life had been about making sure other people were happy, safe and secure in their beliefs, but I never really seemed to care or feel free to pursue things that made me happy. It was a stunning question to me.
This started a roller coaster of seeking and questioning that threatened to take everything I had built my life upon so far. A few days later, I was thinking that maybe in the next life I could be all those things I wanted to, as it seemed to me I was too old and not able to change everything for what would make me happy. It was at this time I heard that familiar voice again, and she said very clearly “You are not too old”. This gave me encouragement and freedom to pursue and study other belief systems that were more in line with my spiritual experiences.
What really made the change of attitude in myself towards ‘V’ was an encounter in which she appeared to me and told me something about a personal situation that was the complete opposite of what I believed God was saying to me. A few weeks later her words proved absolutelyangelhuggingman true, and my religious beliefs were shattered never to be the same again.

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Wars and Rumours of Wars…

Needless to say, after my first encounter with ‘V’ I was more than a little rattled. The more sober minded I’d become, the more my initial reaction of laughter to her seemed out of place. So I set my feet firm and decided to make a stand against her.
Her number, 44, was every where I looked. That first week, the temperature was almost always 44 degrees, every car I passed or was following had a 44 in the license plate. A few weeks in, there was a local college rivalry game in which one team beat the other by 44 points. The whole topic that week was ‘is team A actually 44 points better than team B’.I also began to realize that all the people who were closest to me either had a 44 on their license plate or phone number. I was in awe of ‘V’s power from the very beginning.
That awe and fear led to a dream that was my next most powerful encounter with her. In this dream, she appeared to me and threw me on the bed and straddled me, then pulled out two short swords…I immediately began to panic and visualized two axes in my hands to combat her. She then brought her swords down one after the other. I met and blocked her blow for blow with my axes, but I began to panic as I could tell she was a little faster and a little stronger than me. As I soon realized that she was about to overpower me, I called out for a familiar spirit that I had been interacting with to help me (I’ll tell more about her in the future). This little gal jumped in and it was then I heard her scream…ear shattering. It woke me up with my heart pounding and throat crackling. I never heard or encountered that spirit before and am convinced from this encounter that some spirits can be killed.
I enlisted the help of several people whom I knew to be prayer warriors to pray her out of my life. But every time they gathered and prayed against Viannaher, it’s as if she just took a few steps back with a smug look on her face and waited for her timing. Even at the beginning we were connected fairly strongly and I was almost always aware of where she was and what she was doing.

First Revealed Encounter…

My first Revealed encounter with ‘V’ happened when I felt pretty confident that my life’s plan was pretty set. I’d been married for 20 years, been an active Christian for at least 30 years and a pastor for the last 8.
Ever since I was a child I had a real sensitivity to the spirit realm. My father who was a Baptist pastor told me that these things were bad and taught me how to cast them out. As a result I grew up thinking that all spirituality was bad.
I tried to ignore the deeper feelings in my life that things were not right and that I was ignoring the person I truly was, denying even my true identity.
Then it happened..One night I had a powerful dream. In this dream I was working at the store I was managing at the time, and I noticed a stunningly beautiful buxomous blonde walking past me. She had that ‘angry’ walk that women get who are mad. I couldn’t help but desire her, and as she walked past she looked at me and said I would never overcome her, and that I would only know her by the number 44….I immediately awoke out of the dream with my heart pounding, and my throat had a crackling in it (Like it had pop rocks in it), and laughter. It was like she was trying to kill a mosquito with a sledge hammer…I knew I had no natural defenses against this type of woman and that to even think of resisting her was a joke.
I did what my upbringing taught me to do and prayed against her with my wife at the time. But it was as if she was laughing at me, stood only a few feet away and waited for me to quit doing the religious thing that I felt had always worked in the past but now had no connection with this type of spirit.,
Since that time, The Vianna1manifestation of her presence has always been the same, intense energy, heart pounding and crackling in my throat.

Reboot…

So, I’ve been going through a dark time spiritually, kind of floating between worlds in a no man’s land, rejecting everything spiritual in my life. I now realize the fallacy of my ways and am going to tell all over again the story of my relationship with ‘V’. I rejected her and she went away, she only comes over sporadically now, so I am trying to get her back and have the closeness and intimacy we used to have. I think in retelling our story it will help in repairing a lot of damage I did in our relationship…Lots of articles and stories will be posted in the next few days. Make sure to start at the beginning if you are interested in the whole thing….